AWwwwww how sweet!

I have a student that is pretty smart. She figured out things in a real hurry, which is fine cause I love the kid. We are doing persuasive speech in my advanced class, how cute it this, she decided to do IVF. Of course there were lots of questions and lots of research, and some crude pictures drawn by me. Hey I never claimed to be an artist. It is so cute. I want to squeeze her. After all of her research she has decided that those that are against it are dumb. That is my cute story for the morning.

I am doing everything possible to keep myself from POAS. This is the only time I have ever been PG, even if it is PUPO. So I am going to cherish it. That is my outlook. Even DH is acting that way. The boobs thing he is loving. He tells me everyday that they are getting bigger, they really aren't that much. Just enough that my bra is tight. I don't want them to grow!!!! Just my belly. My best friends baby shower is this weekend, so I have a ton to do Friday when I get to my moms until Saturday evening. I am making pasta salad, veggie trays, fruit trays, and cut out sugar cookies. I cannot find a stupid airplane cookie cutter anywhere. I went on a hunt. No one has them. They are having a boy and his room is planes, trains, and autos. I have the last two, but oh well. I bet she doesn't notice. I really wanted to put a note in the basket I made that she was gonna be an auntie, but she will have to wait. I am going to make Derrick take me to mexican night at the bar tonight....mmmm beans for more gas. I can say the PIO is making me stink, and I can't even blame the cat. She even runs away!!!! LOL!!!

I had to go in the backdoor!!!

But I got it done!! I am here 2 days past 5dt. I am not so patiently waiting for Monday. It will be the best day of my life. I have also decided that (after reading Wendy's blog) I have to let some things go. So I am going to. I have several people that I just can't be around. Here though I can be me. The crazy, stubborn, pain in the ass that I am. I am ready to move beyond certain things. It is time. I did all of my crying before transfer about my cousin and her twins. So I hope they make it somehow. I am just going to avoid my family other than my immediate family completely. They are insane and I can't be around that. I am back at work. I have bunches to do, so this is short and sweet. I am PUPO and I love it. I have never ever felt like this. We transfered on perfect embie into a perfect lining. Derrick got to see it. I had already assumed the "position". The whole thing was easy, like a pap smear. I will know on Monday.

More Pics

Main Bathroom

Master Bathroom, and of course the nosy cat.

Pictures

Tomorrow is the day. We have to be there at 8:30 and embies get put in about 9:30. Seriously, I never thought I would get this far. I am so excited. Derrick told me yesterday that he is tired of everyone asking questions. I do remember saying that I didn't want to be asked questions. We live in a super small town of about 200 people, so everyone is all up in everyone else's business. This is the one thing that I do not need people asking about. I am not going to feel pg, BECAUSE I DON"T KNOW WHAT IT FEELS LIKE! I want to tell them that to fuck off. I know that we have a lot of friends, but still I feel like I need to keep this to myself for a while. There are people asking if I am pregnant yet, and no transfer has been done! There are particular people that are asking that have no fucking business making inquiry into my life. They are low life pieces of shit and I want them to leave me the hell alone. I just want to get through the rest of the school year then everyone can know what is going on. Derrick can't keep his big damn mouth shut and that is why we have this problem. He tells everyone everything. Now he is annoyed and it serves him right.

On to fun....here are pictures of the house!!!

All of this stuff is making me icky...

My body is rejecting everything that is going into it. I reacted bad to my antibiotic. So I get to add one more to the list. GRRRR. Still itchy. the prometrium is pretty friggin gross, but better than another shot. I might opt for the shot here soon though. I have heartburn something fierce and cannot figure out why. On the up side, I rode to Dodge with Derrick last night to take a load of cattle. It was pretty cool. It was the strangest feeling sitting in the truck when they were loading them, so I got out and watched. Then everytime you stop or go around a corner they move and it is so WIERD!!!!! It was pretty neat. I have ridden a lot over the years and this was by far the most interesting. Grain and hay is pretty routine. Other than the fact that in the truck Derrick was driving the passenger seat SUCKED EGGS. No air ride, no recline, sucked. I don't have an air ride in our truck, but at least it reclines. The W9 he drove when we first met had an air ride. I slept most of the way to and from Dodge. I forgot how good you sleep ina truck. The vibration just rocks you to sleep. I loved it. I kinda miss it. I am headed back to Denver tonight. My dad has to come and get me, cause my car is at their house. Derrick is coming out on Friday with a friend, so we can drive my car home after ET. I am ready for that man. Other than that there is not a whole lot going on. Sleepy and my tummy is icky.

Holy Embies!!!!

The RE called and I had 27 mature eggs and with ICSI 23 of them fetilized. So now we wait and see how many make it to day five and they will be graded on day 3. I am so happy.

On the other hand, I just got an email from an old roommate in college. BTW, I seriously dislike this woman. She said some pretty nasty lies about me and stole stuff, clothes, but still. So she wants to get together and catch up. UMMM HELL NO!! I choose to surround myself with those that are supportive of me and who I am, not someone or people that have no clue who I am or what is important to me. I do not need that in my life. Derrick thinks I should be nice. i told him that I was just not going to email her back. I emailed my friend that she got my addy from. I am not mad at her by any means, I am just not going to talk to this other woman. Ang should know that there are things that I just can't get over. That and this girl started talking about her son. UMMMM no don't even go there with me. I am not bitter, but no one is going to rub in the fact that they have kids and I don't. Let alone someone like that. I have not talked to her in 6 years and I don't plan on starting now. I have the most supportive girlfriends in the world both in cyberspace and at home. I don't need toxic ones. That is all she ever was, a freeloader and toxic.

Derrick is moooving cows today. I wish I could ride with him. I love to ride. I feel a little icky anyway, so I want to go home. I am going to make something yummy for dinner. I am thinking chicken fried steak. MMMMMMMMM......I am also on a laundry mission. We have a TON...I guess DH can't figure out how to use the washer and dryer. He finally figured out the dishwasher, so I should be happy about that. 30 minutes to home!!!

All 28 of those little buggers are out!!!

Holy eggies! There was a whole bunch of those little guys. Derrick sperm were good too. So now we wait on the fert report. I had a long discussion with him about his buttfacedness. He said he was sorry, he just wasn't sure how to deal with all of this and he feels like all I need him for is sperm and to give me a shot. I understand that. I also told him that I was not going to deal with stupid people around here asking me stupid questions and being nosy. They can mind their own damn business. I can overreact like a champ sometimes and I think that everything pile dup and out it came. But he assured me that he was sorry and that his friends were not more important than me and our family. I feel better, just crampy. Kinda like AF cramps and like I have gas...you could poke a pin in me and I would fly away! I am in a good mood, just sleepy and a little crampy!